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Monday, August 3, 2009

Sometimes, I just felt that life is unfair towards me, I mean, everyone could relate to that. I know that I am demanding and pushy and perhaps that is the reason why no guys had feelings for me sincerely, even if they claimed that they do, they just show it off once and BOOM, it is back to square one.
I have tried my best for this production, but 'she' never showed much interest. She only say,' wait ain, wait ain' .. is that what you have? you keep saying that you love me, BUT i DON'T SEE any actions done to prove that you really LOVE ME?!
I know that many of the committee members have done their part but I just don't know, I feel so not appreciated by seniors because they seem not bothered and they showed it clearly. Andd, i tend to vent it on you guys and it so happen to be you.. I know that I am in the wrong, please forgive me..
I just have so many things going on in my head right now. I have my personal crisis going on, studying of UTs, late nights, interpersonal problems with mates. I just got so many things going on. They keep emphasising that, 'IT IS OKAY, THIS IS JUST A STEPPING STONE FOR YOU GUYS!' DAMMIT! THIS IS NOT A STEPPING STONE! YOU ARE JUST BEING IGNORANT TO EVERYTHING! YOU THINK THAT WELFARE IS NOT IMPORTANT! OH PER-LEASE, WELFARE IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING!
I AM NOW GOING TO BE FIRM ON MY GROUND! WHEN I SAY, I WANT IT, I WANT IT! IF YOU ARE GOING TO MESS UP WITH ME, HELL YEAH! I AM SO GONNA MESS UP YOUR LIFE! YOU DON'T EVEN WANT TO IMAGINE IT!
PROVE TO ME THAT YOU CAN BE A LEADER! IF YOU CAN'T, LET ME BE THE LEADER! DAMMIT!

(to my dearest PM: I am so sorry, I may be harsh on you but I work this way, but if you felt that I went overboard, please tell me. I will change)

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