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Monday, March 1, 2010

I often asked myself whether I do really know what I am doing and what I am putting myself into. But the answer that I could ascertain myself was nothing. I realized that I cannot be certain as to whether I can still continue loving you, sunshine. I still love you. I felt as though I am forbidden from loving you and that alone made me feel so devastated. I saw a photo and I could not help myself but to feel that the green monster in me was growing so big that I am sufffocated with the jealousy within me. I wished I could get over you but I have tried all means but you are still deeply etched in my mind. I kept thinking of you but I knew that you never think of me at all. I was never on anybody's mind. I miss you sunshine. My days were gloomy without you and I could not find anyone else to brighten up my day which always made me felt that I am better off to be heartless. At least I don't feel gloomy and I don't feel hurt or jealous.

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